Hi Pretzels!
First of all, salamat sa spoon and fork kanina. Haay. Di ata ako nakapag-thank you. May someone kasi na kumausap sa akin. Basta. Di ko na maalala. Pero thank you. :DD
Sigh. Miss na kita. Super. Nice haircut nga pala. XD Joke. Peace tayoo. Wala akong masabi. Di na kasi tayo madalas makapag-usap. 
Okaay. ‘Til next time~
Ai. Before I forget, nakita ko yung younger brother mo at younger sister mo. :)) Super magkakamukha kayo. Yun lang. XP
Pretzels,
I don’t think I should be saying this. I’m now married - to the Lord. And I’m here.. Uhmm. To say goodbye?
I just remembered. When my friend asked you if you’re going to court me or date me, you told her, “I want to be a priest.” I guess it’s the opposite now. I mean, not that I want to be a sister or a single blessed. But right now, I want to be alone with God. Maybe, if what you told my friend is true, you’ll understand me. 
Right now, it’s still you. Even if I don’t love you as much as before, I’m keeping my promise. My promise of forever. It’s still you. And it’s just you. 50%. Because the other half is for God.
I’m not wishing for you to understand me because first and foremost, I don’t think you would take time to understand me. I’m not even sure if you still care, or if you cared. I don’t make sense to you anyway. Maybe as your friend, I do. I was contented with that. But right now, I don’t care either way. I’m loved. I’m sure. And it doesn’t really matter now if it’s you or not. I’m loved by the Greatest. I’m loved by God.
Goodbye is not the word that I want to say. It will be, “See you then~” Although, I’m not sure about you anymore. I used to. But either way, I repeat, it’s just you. And it will be just you. No one can ever replace what I’m feeling for you. Not a PERSON at least. God did. But no person can.
I guess that’s all that I want to say. My apologies for the lack of explanation. Or if you don’t quite understand it, leave it as it is.
PS: Pretzels. I love you forever. Plus one day~ Just one wish. Realize my worth.
Shoot. Bitter much. There’s something new on Pretzels’ site. Goolai. Same persons involved. Ouch.
Pretzels.
Shoot. I don’t want to feel bitter anymore. This is NOT SO ME. ‘Tek. I know who that is. I really do know. She’s my friend. We treat each other as sisters. Why her? WHY? I don’t want to feel bad about her. She’s a dear friend to me. Old and new. We have always been together ever since we knew each other. WHY HER?!
Haay. Seems that I can’t do anything. I’m bitter. That’s all. Should I give up on you? I mean, we’re friends. I’m glad. You said we are. But I was expecting more. Don’t get it? I’m expecting. I am waiting. Then, I’ll later found out that you’re crazy about her.
I never got hurt like this. It only happens because of you. You always hurt me. Tell me I’m weak. That’s how I am. That’s how I was made. I was made for you. And you always make me cry.
I’ve got a thousand of things to say. But how can I say it when you’re not listening. When I know you won’t believe me. When I know that you won’t feel the same way. Now, my stupidity strikes. I really, really like you. Because if I don’t, I wouldn’t have done all those things for you. Though, I’ll never say I was wrong when I chose you. You taught me the use of colors. You painted my world. Yet, what you taught me makes me the color “white.” No use at all. No significance to you.
Should I cry? I just want to sleep and forget about it. Just remain as my friend. Maybe I’ll be contented that way. I may say I’m alright, but you’re smart, and you’ll know that I’m not. So be it. I’m NOT okay. I don’t know anymore what I’m feeling.
I hope you’re listening. Pretzels, I really do think I love you now.
Week long fulfillment of my dreams. Haay. I am the happiest person I ever knew during those days. 6 days of actually talking to him. I want to rewind the time.
Monday.
Define U N E X P E C T E D . I came to school early but I went to Pretty’s classroom first so that I could review there. After reviewing, I realized that the bell would ring any moment now so I went back to our room. To my surpirse, there was no chair in my place. Mrs. Justo said, “Borrow chair from the other classrooms.” I searched every room. Except 2B because Mrs. Muyot is the proctor there. When I came to Pretzels room, which is 2nd to the last room, they happen to have an extra chair.
Ayun. Skip skip. Basta.
Tuesday.
Dismissal. Pretty and I were looking at his pictures in my wallet. We were even actually arguing whether Pretzels looks cute on candid photos or on formal photos. Then, he suddenly showed up. He said hi. He said bye. And then, he said, “Ingat.” Haay. I’m just not used to hear it. 
Pretty and I formulated a conclusion that he doesn’t want to talk to me on crowded places. That’s why he only talks to me where nobody could see us. Except Pretty.
Wednesday.
I actually ignored him. My bad. Rainier was teasing me. He went to their room and called him, saying that I was the one calling him. When he went out, his smile was welcoming. And then I said, “Di kaya kita pinapatawag.” OMG. Super. I’m so rude. And what he said was the part that made me really guilty. “Ah. Ganun. Sige. Hi~!” He still remained smiling. I should have said good luck or anything. Goolai.
Thursday.
I never thought this day would still come. Everything was planned. Everything was perfect although it was not part of the plan. Guys, define P E R F E C T . Literally. The atmosphere was so solemn. I didn’t expect it to be that way. Pretty even cried.
And I realized. I actually love him. Pretzels. That’s all I could say. And, that’s all I’m saying.
Friday.
The day I was afraid to come. But it still came. Since I was very contented of what happened yesterday, it didn’t matter if he would greet me or not today. But he did, he said goodbye. A sweet goodbye. As if there would be a Monday to come. But I’m contented. Since I’ve done what I’ve been dreaming of doing to him ever since I realized that I like him.
Saturday.
I saw him. It was the 21st. I didn’t expect that I would see him. He just said hi. I was in a hurry that time. I didn’t bother to ask why he was there. I’m just happy that I saw him.
That’s all I could say.
And that’s all I’m saying.
In this last 5 days that I could see him, I’ll make sure that every second of our existence in the same place and at the same time won’t be missed.
Di na ako mahihiya. Sabihin na nila yung gusto nilang sabihin. Basta, I’m doing only what I want and what makes me happy. Wala naman akong nasasaktan, di ba???
I just started doing it a while ago. I collected a memory. And before the day ended, there was another one. Goolai. Oo nga. Sa tingin-tingin lang kami nabubuhay. But who cares? Dito kami masaya. Or more probably, ako lang. Haay.
I’ll collect memories for these last few days. Babaunin ko for summer. And after summer, you can expect the same me. Hindi magbabago yun. I’ll wait for you forever. You’re the only you that I want~!
In the morning, I already noticed
You’re not where you’re usually seated
The sun gleaming on it’s sky
It doesn’t awe me, I wonder why
Maybe you’re sick, I hope you’re not
But no matter you’re always hot
But in the meantime I shall stay
Tomorrow will be a brighter day
* Cause you’re absent for today
And I can’t wait for the next day
I hope you will be fine
Cause it’s been such a long time
Since I last saw you
School today won’t be okay
If time is stealing you away
I wish tomorrow would just come
Come to me or I’ll be numb
( * )
Come to school tomorrow
With that you can end my sorrow
Come to me and then say hi
Oh please don’t ever say goodbye
( * )
Be absent no more
So that we’ll be together
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I love you guys. Miss ko na kayo. Grabe talaga tayo kapag weekend. Di makapaghintay na mag-Monday.
Ayun. I’ll love you forever friends. There IS such thing as forever. And that is YOU.
Let
Words and Music by Me.
You take my breath away
Always, when will I hear you say?
I’m sorry, my sense are not keen
Where you are, where you’ve always been
* My endocrine gland
Is just like your love
Straight to my blood
Straight to my heart
When we don’t need to speak
Your eyes, they take me to the peak
I never felt you in any way
You said you love me come what may
I love you
I know you also do
So stop riding on my endocrine gland
If it’s true, we’ll stay hand in hand
*
Pretzels…
I miss you. Four days na kitang di nakikita. Paano pa kaya kapag summer na.
Someday, we’ll be together.
Tell that man
How this story began
He walked in the door
And I fell on the floor
He was looking at me
And said, “I’m sorry.”
It’s not you, it’s just me
Who’s completely relieved
Tell that man
That I am his biggest fan
I am simple
He’s impossible
He will never be free
So I said, “I’m sorry.”
I love you, I think so
But what is this for?
* One day I’ll see you in love with me
One day I’ll be the one you dream of
One day I’ll meet you and your gaze
And one day I’ll be.. The one to tell you
